On the Quest

I am still trying to figure out if I am more attracted to my same sex or the opposite. I remember during my high school days, when i was 12 years old I had a crush on this girl. She was sweet and adorable. Following years I still experienced the same my feelings for the same sex grew more. I had boy friends but it felt different, I was more at ease with girls. Yes ... I like the way we talk openly to each other share alot of tears and laughter.

At the age of 13, I had my first kiss "wow" it felt funny, dnt ask why and the hell that kiss I enjoyed... Yes it was with a girl (hahaha..) Both of us didn't know how to kiss that's why it was funny..., Yes, i did have boyfriends during my highschool but i didnt feel comfortable with it. It was werid, like you wouldn't want them to touch your hands it felt ikky... yuckyyy...

I had a boy friend who I love being with that was 1989, i think... any way I liked his hair, it was kinda funny, his voice that i could appreciate, his eyes that twinkles, how he smelled even if he smoked, his big hands when he touches my hands (coz i have small hands) but one thing for sure he was the best kisser and made my heart beat and made me have goose bumps....

After those days, I had other relationships with MEN (yes... men) but till this point my attraction to female is alot stronger, if you ask me why... I would say thats how i feel.

Still searching for me...